But what's characteristic of blues is that you do come out of them. Besides, I don't think this is strictly what I would call a rainy day blue..
It's a my-sister-is-practically-kicking-me-out-of-my-own-life blue. I have a nagging compulsion to avoid eye contact with her lest I burst into hell fury.
There, there.. another example of her bustling stupidity creating it's non existent account on the history of the universe
as I type.. I asked her to restart the cable reader to get the TV running and she restarted the modem instead.. Now I have to run around taking care of her technological dumminess. Not only do I deal with her incompetence, laziness, untidiness, sexual escapades.. now there's technological decapacitation added to the list. I mean, for fuck's sake, just go home. I won't have my mom yelling at me for things I did, let alone things I didn't do. Hence you can see how difficult you are making my life for me.
The moment I heard she was getting a job at a bank nearby, I thought "shit. She's moving in permanently". I really can't allow that. Either she lives here or Noddy and I do.. Thank GOD she hasn't tried to monopolize Noddy yet. Noddy's the only dude who will be mine forever and ever. Speaking of dudes, wtf is wrong with them? Why do they have such a fucking fluctuating brain frequency? I think that's the root cause of their low intelligence and unreceptivity. I can't decide my opinions on people if they oscillate between extraordinarily giving and just bloody stuck up. "watch this movie because I tell you to." Did I ASK for your opinion? Pay attention, I DID NOT. Whatever it is that you people are advicing me on, I'm sure it's brilliant advice.. NO sarcasm there..but for heaven's sake! keep your godly advice in your fuckin pocket till I ask you to get it out. That's the one reason I stick around Jini.. She's not one to ask questions or give away free advice. You have to talk to her, you'll have to make a prior appointment with the book she's reading and you need her advice, she'll give it to you.. honest and straight.. you may like it or not.. you may use it or you may not.. That, she won't concern herself with. She l-e-a-v-e-s y-o-u a-l-o-n-e. It's important. It makes me NOT want to run.
I don't know how many million times I've realized this, Noddy is the only one I can completely trust to get what I'm saying, to here me out without having to shut up.. To take my opinions for opinions.. and, well he has his own but people would think me crazy if I told them Noddy lets me know of his opinions...
Well, whatever, that. I need a miraculous change of scene in every aspect except Noddy. Or perhaps college. Because college is so detachedly uneventful that it isn't effecting my living drama in any major way (and God! God forbid that!)
Rain smell. It makes me happy.
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